One Year Later 12.15.08 Monday, December 15, 2008
Posted by spontaneouslyclassy in Life.Tags: college, cried, drink, drunk, forget, friends, Friendship, fun, future, graduation, home, laugh, learn, Life, lost, love, memories, roommates, screamed, time, today, work, year
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If you are me or many of my friends you would say that you are a recent graduate…so recent in fact that the ink is still drying on the diploma.
Have you ever stopped and thought at any moment in time..where you were exactly one year ago?
I have meet new friends, grown apart from old friends and been forced to say goodbye to others. I have moved out of my parents house, moved in with some amazing roommates and moved on from my college life.
Today marks exactly one year since my college graduation…It is hard to believe how much time has went by and how different things are now than they were a year ago.
I have learned, laughed, loved, lost, cried, screamed, broke down, and completely forgot things. There are things I wish I could change, things I never want to forget and things I wish I didn’t remember…but they have all made me who I am today…and I wouldn’t want to change the person I have become.
I am excited for the future, excited for what lies ahead and excited that I have people in my life to take that journey with me.
Gone for me are the days of complete and utter drunkenness…and I am okay with that. I love where I am in life now, but I still look back on the days I had and those memories are irreplaceable.
As I write this I am starting to think about where I will be in the future…more specifically where I will be exactly one year from today…and how much of what I say now will still be relevant? I look forward to what will happen..I cannot even begin to dream where I will be…
…only time will tell.
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Falling for the Seasons 10.10.08 Friday, October 10, 2008
Posted by spontaneouslyclassy in Life.Tags: apple cider, apples, autumn, color, fall, gorgeous, hot apple cider, leaves, pumpkin, pumpkin patch, seasons, trees, weather
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I look out my window every morning and I fall more in more in love with what I see. My view is unlike anything I have ever seen. It overlooks downtown, but downtown is surrounded by trees. I cannot wait for all the Fall colors to fully set in.
Fall might be the most beautiful season there is. The colors, the weather and even the smell is amazing.
Today is one of those perfect Fall days. It is incredibly gorgeous outside and all I really want to do is sit on my deck and relax with a cup of apple cider.
Which is another reason I love fall. Apple cider and pumpkin pie! Both incredibly delicious!
I am going to a pumpkin patch on Sunday (hopefully) and I am incredibly excited for drink some Hot Apple Cider and find a pumpkin (via a hayride–that is a requirement) to carve later in the evening with my roomies and the love of my life.
Not to mention this weekend is supposed to be absolutely gorgeous. I am excited.
I love the way the seasons change. It is so nice to have 4 different seasons, all very unique and very beautiful in its own way.
Here’s to you, Fall, for being gorgeous!
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I guess this is growing up 10.9.08 Thursday, October 9, 2008
Posted by spontaneouslyclassy in Life.Tags: graduation, growing, growing up, job, learning, Life, love, relationships, work, young professional
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If you would have talked to me 4 short months ago, I never would have thought that a month later, my life would be falling into place.
Fast forward those 4 months and my life is exactly where I thought it would be.
I have always imagined that post graduation would bring a great job, an apartment over the city and the most amazing man I have ever met…it was starting to look as though it was all wishful thinking.
I think my stars we all aligned and I have everything I ever thought. I have a beautiful apartment overlooking a city (not to mention 2 amazing roomies) a job and an amazing guy.
I am a young professional (the name just sounds good) and I am finally on my own living life how I want too. I am still learning and growing but I am now doing it on my own terms and it is the most amazing feeling ever.
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we have to stop meeting like this 6.6.08 Friday, June 6, 2008
Posted by spontaneouslyclassy in Life.Tags: anxiety, anxious, beating heart, bed, blood pressure, blood sugar, calm, depression, diabetic, disorientation, doctor, EKG, emergency, emergency room, ER, facebook, health, heart, heartattack, hospital, nurse, pulse, racing, racing thoughts, relax, sleep, sleeping, stress, suicide, thirst, Valium, water
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2:43 am-June 5th 2008
I have just returned from the hospital. I was discharged with a clean bill of health. My EKG was “perfect” as the doctor said, my blood pressure was 131/75 and my blood sugar was 89. Great, I’m not having a heartattack and I am not diabetic (this was an initial concern dude to the fact that my dad is dabetic and I was incredibly thirsty upon arrival to the ER) So, since I am in good health, what brought me there?
Well, I went to bed early to try and get back on a normal sleep schedule because staying up until 4am and not waking up until noon or later was getting ridiculous and I need to do something with my life. So, I hit the hay after 10 and off to dreamland I go.
Fast forward to about 12:20am and I woke up..I figured it was because my body was just not ready to sleep…so on to facebook I go and I just felt completely disoriented…I thought it was because I woke up and hadn’t adjusted to it yet. Back to bed I go. I was determined to get a good night sleep.
Laying in bed, my disorientation just doesn’t go away. I knew something was wrong…I could feel that I was just starting to get anxious…and if last time this happened was any indication, my heart would began to start racing momentarily. I decided to walk upstairs, use the bathroom and I would be good.
I am just about to the bathroom and instead I go in to tell my mom..because she is a mom and she will fix it (I may very well be 22 years old, but my mom can still fix it all). I wake her up out of what I am sure was a deep sleep and tell her my heart is racing. She gets up, wakes my dad and tells him we need to go to the ER. My dad is curious as to what is going on, my mom feels my heart and says that it is indeed racing and we should probably go. I go to change and am ready to go, because at this point, I just want to not feel like I am…I don’t know how to describe it, I don’t feel sick it is almost like an anxious feeling. I grab a water and head out the door. That water was gone in seconds..and suddenly my mouth is incredibly dry and I can’t get enough to drink.
We arrive at the ER, I tell the lady my heart is racing they take me into room, it isn’t an exam room, it’s the room before that, they ask you questions about your health, how tall you are, weight..things like that. The guy took my pulse (it was 126..in case you aren’t aware…this is definitely NOT normal). The doctor comes into the room and says we need to move to and exam room (room #2 if you are wondering) because an ambulance was on its way in.
I am in the room, and that damn glass of water cannot stay full enough. They continue the questions to try and figure out what my issue is. In comes Deb, a very nice lady, to hook me up to an EKG machine. Now..if you have been lucky enough to NEVER have had to get hooked up to one of these machines…you aren’t missing out. They take these..’conductors’ and stick them..ALL over you..one one each ankle..5 around your heart..and a few others spread across your chest. and then they have to take these cords and hook them to they sticky things to get a reading. It isn’t painful at all..there is just a lot of wires and it is incredibly annoying.
Anyways, back to the story…they get my EKG print out and Deb takes it to the doctor (Dr. Kim). He comes back in and he said that it was, and I quote “perfect.”
Dr. Kim then sat down and started asking my questions about my life and am I happy and have I been having racing thoughts..or thoughts of suicide (I have not) and I answer him. And I tell him I am just stressed about not having a job..yadda..whatever. Dr. Kim says, he just thinks that I am stressed with everything and he was going to get me some Valium so that I could relax, but also take my blood sugar because I am so thirsty and he wants to make sure I am not diabetic.
Deb comes back in with the testing thing that you use to test your blood sugar. She takes mine, it is 89..this is apparently really good. Dr. Kim comes back in and asks if I am feeling better..I am (hell if you give ANYONE 2 Valium..you better believe they are gonna be feeling better). He gives me and my mom a printout to read about anxiety…guess what one of the symptoms is…dry mouth!
Turns out, I suffered from what I would consider a mild/sever anxiety attack. He writes me a prescription for Valium for me to take AS needed if this situation were to arise again. By this time..the Valium..hits me and I just want to sleeeeeeep.
After all was said and done, all is well. I am relaxed…calm and tired. I am thankful that I am healthy. On a final note, I would like to address the ER:
Dear ER,
You and I have got to stop meeting like this. It seems that it always ends with my hooked up to and EKG machine fearing for my life.
Thank you for your cooperation.
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you can’t catch me 5.19.08 Monday, May 19, 2008
Posted by spontaneouslyclassy in Life.Tags: boyfriend, caught, drink, drunk, home, honesty, mom, one-night stand, parents, sex, sexcapades, solo, virgin
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I am still living at home. So much time has now passed that spring commencement ceremonies are now in full swing..and to those grads, I say Congrats!
This not having a job thing sucks…a lot. Only one thing sucks more. Living at home.
Now, I don’t really mind living at home, I get along with my parents and my younger sister, I don’t have to pay rent or electric or cable, and I don’t have to buy groceries or pay for my cell phone..there is just one minor little detail that is becoming increasingly major!
While going to college and living away from home I did whatever I wanted whenever I wanted to do it. If I wanted to go out at 11 pm and not return home until much, much later the next day..that was fine (in fact I did that many, many times). But this whole living at home thing has put a damper on my social (and more importantly sexual) life.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I can go out and do as I please..but I just find something so incredibly wrong about going out, getting INCREDIBLY wasted and then coming home. So IF I do go out, I tend to stay at a friends house so that my parents cannot see the level of inebriation that I often get too. They know I drink it isn’t a big secret and if necessary they would come get me from wherever I need to be picked up from because they don’t want me getting into a car with someone who has been drinking.
But really, I am just gonna be honest.
There is NO WAY, I repeat-NO WAY, that I would go out and bring someone home. I am not trying to pretend I am innocent and virginal because, well that just isn’t true but I don’t discuss my sexcapades with the parentals…that is just something they don’t need to know about and there is not way I am willing to share. If it ever is brought up (generally after some drinks around the fire with family and friends) I deny, deny, deny..at all costs. It is just not necessary for them to know anything about that part of my life..mostly because they have never met a boyfriend of mine..and that would bring up another area of questioning about one-night stands (which may or may not have taken place at some point in my past sexual history) that I just don’t need to get into.
My parents aren’t stupid (and when I say parents, I mean my Mom..because she just says what is on her mind). She (my mom) knows that I am no longer a card carrying member of the V-Club…but I have never admitted it…I think she just knows…but I don’t want to admit to it..because then they have concrete evidence that I, in fact, like sex.
Which brings me back to–sexcapades.
Now, I like sex just as much..if not more than anyone I know..and that includes the guys…and I like to have it..A LOT.
I don’t know how people do it. How can anyone go to their parents house and feel comfortable having sex? I find something so incredibly wrong with that. When I finally bring a boyfriend home to meet them..there is NO WAY IN HELL I am doing it in my parents house (ok so I will but whatever). But getting it on with my boyfriend in my parents house is another realm compared to doing the horizontal mambo with someone I just met.
Talk about an awkward next morning. How the hell would I sneak a guy out of my house without my parents knowing? NOT GONNA HAPPEN. Not to mention..my room is right below my parents…I’m just gonna say it…
I am not quiet and I am not very good at being quiet when I should be…and incase you aren’t following what I am saying…THEY WOULD HEAR ME..*shudder*. Talk about embarrassing! My mom once questioned if I had hickeys (I did..gross I know) and I had never been more embarrassed in my life…there is no way that I would live through a “were you having sex last night” talk.
Needless to say, my sex life has suffered 100% since I moved back home. And let me tell you it sucks.
It is weird enough going solo at home..terrified they will hear…
I am not sure what would be worse…them catching me doing it alone or with someone.
I never want to find out.
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i have lots of suckfriends 5.14.08 Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Posted by spontaneouslyclassy in Life.Tags: 21st century, careers, cellphone, college, email, facebook, friends, IM, lazy, Life, multi-tasking, myspace, phone, suckfriends, technology, time, work
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Is it just me and my pathetic life, or has the concept of friendship gotten completely lost?
It seems that with the hustle and bustle of everyday life, people have forgotten what it means to be a friend. It seems everyone I know, including myself have started a transitional time in their life and it seems are busy just trying to keep their head about the proverbial water.
I understand that most of my friends, like me, are 20-somethings and have just graduated from college and are looking for careers, planning weddings or something of the sort, but when has is become so hard to just say a quick hello?
Now, let me mention and I think this will come as no surprise, THIS IS THE 21st CENTURY…we have amazing things like the internet where we can instant message, facebook and myspace as we so please…and we can text message until our hearts are content..so why with all this technology don’t we feel the need to send a simple hello to a friend.
It isn’t a hard concept to grasp..you have a friend…you haven’t spoken to them in some time..how hard is it to log-in to facebook, search their name..scroll to their wall and write, “hey, haven’t talked to you in awhile…how are you?” or something of the sort…that takes..at most..a minute. Now, I completely understand that people have jobs and are busy and are trying to figure stuff out..but don’t even try to tell me that most people on average check facebook at the very least..once a week…and in that time you can’t see that your oldest and dearest friend is wondering how you are…and you can’t even write them back..but what you can do..is add bumper stickers, update your profile pic, change around your top friends (stupid facebook apps) but you have just been so busy..that you saw said post…read it..but can’t write back..serisouly…are you kidding me?
So, all I am trying to say is, in general, people suck. With all this technology we, as society, have become lazy and..well lazy. There is no reason that you can’t send a quick email. I bet it takes a hell of a lot less time than writing a letter and people used to do that back in the day. Or an IM…no one can be bothered to type a quick ‘hello’ while they are wasting away facebooking…come on, you all know as well as I do we have all mastered the art of ‘multi-tasking’ years ago..lets put it to good use. And almost everyone and their mother have a cell phone these days, do not even TELL me you are too busy while WALKING to class that you can’t scroll through the contacts to catch up, even if it is just for 5 minutes, on your way to class…not that long ago..not everyone had cell phones so the convenience of a telephone wasn’t as easy as pushing “SEND” or the green phone on a cell..but it is now.
I would say that I do my best to keep in touch with people, I try and send emails..(and I am not sure if I am the only one thinking this..but does it bother anyone else when you ask someone a series of questions or make a statement that will illicit a response..to hear NOTHING in return?) and keep in contact as much as I can…but I am about to say screw it.
Screw it all!
“There comes a time when you’re doing something & realize it just doesn’t make sense to keep doing it… you’re not quitting you just know, enough is enough.”
And at this point, enough is enough, I will not exhaust my efforts to people that do not appreciate my friendship.
If those people do not consider me a good enough friend to have the decency to get back to me at some point in the not so distant future..then clearly I do not need them in my life. And I know I am not the only one that feels this way…
And that…is why I have a lot of suckfriends!
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it is taking its toll 4.18.08 Friday, April 18, 2008
Posted by spontaneouslyclassy in Life.Tags: boredom, busy, humor, job, time, wit, work
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it has set in.
I knew this would happen eventually. A lot of time has passed. It should have happened awhile ago. I thought it set in already. I was wrong.
BOREDOM!
–it has set in.
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I am at a loss for what to write about. I write and write and nothing comes out how I want it too. Stories and content I have..and lots of it..I just can’t get it out on paper (this blog) how I want it too. I need something to occupy my time and then when I have a spare moment I can write wit, humor, and anything else that comes to mind and it will be flawless.
I always have said and maintained that I work well under pressure and I think that a lot of people do. If I know that I have ‘x’ amount of hours to get something done, I tend to put it off until the last possible moment I can while still finishing it in time. I think most people work like this..although some of those people create shit for results while others can create a very decent/good result (sometimes with little to no effort).
I come back to this post an hour and a half later..not because I ran out of things to say, but because I got distracted and started doing other things…some may call this boredom..and I would agree. See if I had a bunch of stuff I had to get done TODAY, this post would have been written and done in a matter of..say a half hour if not less…but since I have all the time in the world, there is no immediate rush.
This has to change, I’m going insane.
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this isn’t what i had in mind 4.13.08 Sunday, April 13, 2008
Posted by spontaneouslyclassy in Life.Tags: apartment, college, employment, friends, graduate, house, job, Life, parents, work
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I imagined life after college to be so much more glamorous than it actually is. To say I have been let down would be accurate. I always thought I would have a job immediately after graduating, I’d move..have my own place and just be able to live and have a ton of fun.
Fast forward to today…I graduated about 4 months ago and here I am…living in my parents basement with no job..and no real prospects and not to mention a $3000 medical bill (that is a story for a different day). I have been applying like crazy but I haven’t had much luck. It isn’t as easy as they try to make it sound. You are either too inexperienced…or over qualified. I never thought having a college degree would hinder my employment opportunities. Oh well, I will find something.
Now, living with the parents could be MUCH worse…but one thing that does suck is I never get to see my friends…they all live kind of far from me and I don’t have the opportunity to go see them much, but when I do…let me tell you, we waste no time in getting completely ridiculous and crazy. Almost just like we are still in college…it is nice.
Living with my parents isn’t what I had in mind and eventually I will move out and have a fabulous place of my own. I’m just going to do it on my own terms.
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